Five Minutes at a Time

Last year I read Alain de Botton’s The Course of Love. Near the end of the book, the main character, Rabih, takes a picture: “Wanting to capture this moment, Rabih calls them to gather for a photo, then sets the camera on a rock and runs to get into the shot. He knows that perfect […]

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On Hard Weeks

I know it’s happening most when I start losing stuff—literal, tangible, physical stuff. I feel my control slipping and suddenly can’t keep up. I feel on edge, flustered, constantly losing words and forgetting what I was supposed to be doing. This, for me, has been the hardest thing about motherhood: the feeling that my mind […]

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Acknowledging the Hard Stuff

Last night, we had a Horrible Diaper Situation in the middle of the night. As with all Horrible Diaper Situations, I prefer to stick the baby in the tub rather than deal with it in a more hands-on way. It was the cold, wee hours of a new year, and with the baby splashing away, I […]

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Writing Truth to Myself

If I had written this last week—or maybe even two days ago—it would have been more clear-cut, a how-to post. But it turns out that I can’t give advice. Some days, I feel like I’ve got it–like my expectations are realistic and my patience is deep. Other days, I feel like it’s an hourly struggle. […]

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Narnia, Slavery, and Living in This World

Liam and I just finished reading The Lion, The Witch and the Wardrobe at night. I’m not sure how much he understands, but it’s soothing, and he does pay attention. He’s fascinated by the idea of Christmas not coming, the concept of turning people into stone, and Mr. Tumnus. One other thing that he constantly […]

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Craving Rest

Even before I had kids when I was a super tired college student and then a super tired teacher, I often woke up looking forward to rest later in the day. But now, with two kids breaking up my sleep, I dream about uninterrupted sleep (except I often don’t dream because I’m up so much […]

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Bible Stories in the Dark

At night we cuddle under the soft, pink blanket in the dark. As I lay beside you to help you fall asleep, you often chatter ceaselessly about all thing things on your two-year-old mind. Sometimes you pat my growing belly and tell your brother, “Baby, it’s dark out that window.” You are learning the difference between morning […]

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